By Jennie Allen
The first time I taught Stuck I asked a roomful of women a simple question.
“When was the last time you felt jealous?”
These were women with children and jobs, not junior high girls, and yet there was not one woman who had not felt jealous in the past week. Most had felt it creep in within the past few hours.
Our eyes seem to always be searching for what we want or do not have – both on the surface, such as pretty things in catalogues, and the deeper hidden things, like better marriages or even just to be married.
When we were knit together, God spent some time knitting parts of us to need Him. We were created to matter – to be known and seen – and once seen, to be loved no matter what.
These desires are innate – God knit these spaces into us.
He wanted us to need Him. Funny thought really, God of the universe creating spaces in little people so we would need Him, possibly want Him, and be incomplete without Him. But we don’t want Him. We never have.
We hunger to the point of starving for Him and yet we still don’t turn to Him; instead we chase wind.
I have seen all the works that are done under the sun; and indeed, all is vanity and grasping for the wind. Ecclesiastes 1:14 (NKJV)
Here is the problem with us. We don’t go to war against invisible soul-sickening sin. We deal with the big, showy, impressive sin that everyone sees. But the invisible stuff is trickier, sneakier and deadlier. Discontentment in the forms of jealousy, comparison and greed is making us sick, washing over our minds constantly. And yet we are so accustomed to it, we have become numb.
Stuck. The more this word is tossed about in my head the more I become angry. I am angry at the devil, at myself, at this world. I am angry that such small and insignificant dreams would bind us so tightly that we live disappointed and paralyzed.
While we compare and long and wait and ask and save and spend and flaunt and pretend and cry and whine and tear down and puff up and stare and wish and ignore and complain and demand and search and find... we are missing something. I think we might be so distracted we are missing everything that lasts.
“My soul is restless until it finds its rest in thee.” – St. Augustine
God is what our souls are made for. Everything else keeps us restless.
What makes you restless?
Jennie Allen is a Bible teacher who is passionate about inspiring a new generation of women to encounter the invisible God. Raised in a Christian home, Jennie heard about God her entire life but not until high school did she see her need for Him. Since that time she has been teaching groups of girls and young women about her God. Her first Bible study, Stuck: The Places We Get Stuck and the God Who Sets Us Free, will release in September 2011. To sample Stuck, visit www.StuckDVDStudy.com. For more on Jennie, visit www.jennieallen.com.